Monday, September 06, 2010
Your dying ..
you feel a tight pull in your chest
your heart beats faster just like when you met your first love for the first time
your brain starts to slow down , as it replays the images and memories that you've been thru in your life
you feel your breath taken away just like the time when you saw the beauty of love and felt it for the first time
your hands grow numb and start to tremble just like the first time you met his or her parents , the nervousness of the thought of what they might think about you
As your heart beat slows down and takes its last few beats for the last time ....
the images and the memories in your brain start to fade leaving behind a blank
your lungs take in its last breath , the breath that seemed like the best damn thing at this point
suddenly everything stops , you dont feel the pain in your chest nor the beats of your heart
you feel your soul floating above your body and you can see yourself lying there .. but you don't seem to feel the sense of helplessness to do something to get back into your body ..
all you do is watch .
you then see a white light, and as you approach the light , you know , that youve completed the journey and it was worth every beautiful second .
That ... is the beauty of death ...
12:16 AM
Friday, September 03, 2010
It been a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG while
okay okay , so i havnt been back here for abit... abit more like close to a year ?? hahaha doesnt mean i forgot about ya'll hahaha . anyways ! LOTS and LOTS ! been going on.
first things first , I am i repeat I AM! proud to say that ive got hooked on to the kpop wave ... and it hit me real hard. like a brick in the face or a punch in the nose .. or or a bitch slap in the cheek of humiliation.... something like that , all i can say is that it hit me REAL hard . no joke :P haha AND its all THANKS to this bunch of girls...
yea them ...
so i guess its safe to say that ive been watching , listening etc etc etc to kpop and stuff that i think ive sub-consciously learned korean ... 0_0.... scary , i know :S . NONE the less its all good :)
ive started my 2nd industrial training already at a Italian Joint in Subang and loving it much haha . the chef is one kick ass of a fella , chef /manager/maintenance dude/dare devil / accounts dept/plumper /electrician . the guy does it all . anyways im almost done with working my 12 day off's and 12 weekends :) soooo im almost there :)
anyways there are pretty much alot of other things that go on but im just abit tired and lazy to think about them , but at least these are the what i'd call major on goings that ive been going thru eh ? hahah till then
ROCK ON MOFO!!
11:18 AM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
for those of you who'd say AMEN to this , this for you yaw ! haha
billionaire - travie mccoy ft Bruno mars
[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
[Chorus]
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire
[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
I would be the host of, everyday Christmas
Give Travie a wish list
I’d probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
And adopt a bunch of babies that ain’t never had sh-t
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
Its been a couple months since I’ve single so
You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho
Get it, hehe, I’d probably visit where Katrina hit
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
Yeah can’t forget about me stupid
Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music
[Chorus]
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire
[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
I’ll be playing basketball with the President
Dunking on his delegates
Then I’ll compliment him on his political etiquette
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
But keep the fives, twentys (?) completely separate
And yeah I’ll be in a whole new tax bracket
We in recession but let me take a crack at it
I’ll probably take whatevers left and just split it up
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was
Eating good sleeping soundly
I know we all have a similar dream
Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
And put it in the air and sing
[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
[Chorus]
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad!
3:35 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
ive come a long way since where i was close to month ago . guess moving on really isn't bad at all :)
i know i havnt been updating the blog very quite abit but i've got valid reasons i hope haha.
i've been pretty caught up lately with FHA and stuff. umm practice any now and then. close to like 3-4 times a week. gosh im learning so much :) happy happy happy.
come to think of it kan , i haven't played hockey in like 3 months which is a total BULLSHIT feeling darn it. haha and i really freaking miss hockey badly :( *i know i may brag about it alot but yea i'm missing it badly.
turns out ive actually realized i'v grown mentally stronger the past few weeks. I mean thinking rationally, im 19 , ive got a whole lot to live for kan ? a matter like that wont let me down now eh .
anyways im thinking of re-applying at Starbucks again when i start college. i need the moolah people. :)
life's has got its bittersweet way of turning up you know. and i think im in for a long long ride. hehe . cheers buddy :D
5:51 PM
Friday, March 26, 2010
A part of life which is going on a downhill rampage
this might be the emo-est post ive ever written ... and probably the last of its kind.
ive known you for many years pal , buddy , assay , amigo , homie , KAWAN , BRO. i know i havnt been always there or even if I put it this way, i havnt been a perfect friend to you. I try , i try , i really do. i try my best to patch things up bro ,but it seems like nothing has work. all i want is to be like what we used to be man, like what we had back in highschool. the shit we'd get into. but i guess people do grow up and people change. but what we had needn't have too. i know its my fault. all im asking , is for you to give it another chance yo. i know ive not been there for most of your gigs and even extremely late for one. i know how fired up pissed you'd be , cause i would .and for that time i scolded you and you dint talk to me for weeks, id understand. cause i know the shit you must have felt buddy. its not easy taking the roll as a adult that need to take up so many responsibilities and it isnt fair for you. i promise, Inshahallah i will try all i can to help you and watch over the young fella. Im writing this so that maybe it'll make me let it out. hopefully ull read this. i dont expect you to forgive all ive done. but this is how i feel. :) im here man.
8:38 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
My Stupid Mouth- John mayer
sing it with me now people , you know its a good song . :)
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now... Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
than she desert me
oh i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
Starting now, starting now...
12:23 AM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
i lub you long long thyme !!!!
hahahah ello peeps :D
3:04 PM
