Im sitting here by my computer and im half way getting bitten dead by mossys and i suddenly have this weird feeling that just past my mine that ive been single for quite a while but it was a lil confusing cause i knew tht i had a girlfriend before but nothing really happend thats why we broke up .

I've always had this desprate feeling or call it a temptation as u may to find a girlfriend but in my brain i knew it was never a necessity . but on the other hand i was constantly telling myself that i should.

Have u ever had this deep felling of peer preasure when u go out to the mall or to the park and u find lovers strolling round the area and they seem so happy . but when u look at it at a different prespective u find out that your the black dot among the white dots and u feel like just esprately going up to someone and asking them out on a date ?? well my friends thats the same kind of feeling i feel every single time.

See after me and shini broke up i swore to myself that i would never want to speak or talk or even see her anymore its probably the anger in me was really intanse.but everytime im alone i kinda miss her bit by bit .even tough nothing special happend btw the two of us cause of the places that we live in *i mean shes all the way in Ausy and im here * that kinda thing .but deep inside i wished i never broke up with her i just wanted to be with someone so desprately that it would come to and extand that i would start believing in love at first sight *its kinda pathetic i know* but yea it was that bad .

But as the days go by i keep telling myself constantly that life has lots installed for me and its not the end of the road yet . But why does a felling inside me tell me that this may be the final chapter and i might not be able to find a person of my life anymore . is it really the end ?? well im hoping not im just driffting in my boat to where life takes me too .

*Thx Aimee and jolyn thx alot*
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