I really dont know what to do seriosuly speaking im clueless. this relationship between me and shini is just not working its just really not working.i think i ought to tell you the reasons ..


1.ths distance between me and he is just really uncomfortable because the distance is a huge HUGE gap between me and her.


2.communication wise is also another problem coz the probs now is that we try sending emails to each other but it was just a really really dumb idea coz knowing her time she is really really busy most of the time . if its not softball she has class and well the point is she is just really really busy.

3.the fear that i have in me is that assuming that she is cheating me with another guy that is the worst fear i have in me now.everytime i think about her as much as i dont want ,as much as i pretand that this fear is just and illusion it just get worst because heck if she was cheating on me i wouldnt know even tough if i did wat can i do ?? .

Well this is enough prof to show how inseccure i am . i just dont understand relationships yet i think i will someday but when ?? will that time be to late for me to understand . i think this is why i never had a long term relationship.

P/S : Shini if your reading this entry i am truly truly sorry for what i have done to make you sad i just want so hard to be the one person to help you during this kinda times in your life i just want to help so so so much that i try so hard to forget the these problems have been the ones that are making it hard for me to help you . im just truly sorry im just really truly sorry.
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